Even though the world is still here and the "same" it feels so different now that Fudge is not with us. It is the small things, where you expect him to be somewhere or just think you see him around and then realise he isn't there. His favourite basket is still in its place, not being used by any other cat. It really is weird just not having him here anymore. For someone who was in our life so much it is hard not having him there anymore. No one else in my life has been like that. Sure I've had relatives die but they were all people I saw relatively infrequently, especially since moving countries. Fudge was there every day and for my wife all day.
Other things do carry on like normal though. I work, we live together, we eat normal stuff and all the other cats are carrying on now. Just Boots seems to be missing Fudge now. He has taken to spending some of his time where Fudge did and wanting more attention occasionally in between his sleeping all day. I suppose eventually we will reach the point where life feels normal again but it is going to take a while.
Still we have a trip to France to see our niece and nephew coming up. Them and a visit from our parents while we are there is going to make it one big family get together basically. Hopefully we get some relaxing time in as well since it is our holiday for this year.
And that is all I can write. If I sit and think about what to write too much I tend to get stuck on thinking about Fudge and cry. It hurts too much to do it so I have to stop now.
Tuesday, August 26, 2014
Thursday, August 7, 2014
Goodbye
It has taken over two weeks for me to write this post since we were so devastated. Fudge died back on 22nd July after coming home from the vets. He simply didn't recover and slowly passed away in his sleep. I was there at the end, panic induced stress and all. Trying to give a cat mouth to mouth may seem desperate but I really was almost dumbstruck with what to do at that moment. He was a massive part of our lives for 14.5 years.
The best thing I can say is that he brought so much happiness in to our lives it is hard to be sad about him. Sure we miss him so much but he had an incredibly happy life. He was never upset or demanding. He was always happy to see us from when we came home to when we got up in the morning to when he just woke up from a nap.
To really rub it in that week we learned Boots did have a malignant cancer in his foot. He is recovering well but he had that to deal with along with the loss of his "brother" Fudge. He went looking for him the first few days and now finds it hard to be somewhere Fudge didn't curl up. Boots spends a lot of his time in baskets and places Fudge would.
It really doesn't feel like Fudge has gone some of the time though. He made such a huge impression on us we subconsciously expect him to be somewhere, or make room for him where he would sit with us or simply look somewhere thinking he is there. Especially with Boots spending time where Fudge would you get fooled briefly sometimes.
The best thing I can say is that he brought so much happiness in to our lives it is hard to be sad about him. Sure we miss him so much but he had an incredibly happy life. He was never upset or demanding. He was always happy to see us from when we came home to when we got up in the morning to when he just woke up from a nap.
To really rub it in that week we learned Boots did have a malignant cancer in his foot. He is recovering well but he had that to deal with along with the loss of his "brother" Fudge. He went looking for him the first few days and now finds it hard to be somewhere Fudge didn't curl up. Boots spends a lot of his time in baskets and places Fudge would.
It really doesn't feel like Fudge has gone some of the time though. He made such a huge impression on us we subconsciously expect him to be somewhere, or make room for him where he would sit with us or simply look somewhere thinking he is there. Especially with Boots spending time where Fudge would you get fooled briefly sometimes.
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