I"m getting to the point in my current bit of work where it is really dragging. I'm in the middle of the drudgery and dull stuff and I really can't be bothered to finish it. I can sit here for a while and just not get anything done since I really can't be bothered to. I know I have to get it done, it's kind of required for my job so that I can get paid but I have zero motivation left for the place where I work.
They've dragged me along for so long without giving anything back that I'm ready to give it all up. If I didn't have bills to pay I would walk right out of here today. It is depressing to realise that the place you have put so much of your working life in to cares nothing for what you have become and just expects you to carry on. I need something that I can feel proud of when I do it, that actually interests me, that doesn't have to be dragged out of me to get done.
Looking at the time now, I've spent 20 minutes since starting to write this and found various ways to do anything but work. This shouldn't be what I do for a living anymore but I don't know how to do anything else. Maybe it is just the things I'm asked to do here but they aren't fun anymore. They are nothing but stress, boredom and monotonous drudge.
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