Well the last couple of days have been as weird as I thought they would be. Sitting in a classroom type place for most of the day learning stuff. Then realising that at the end of it I don't get to go home to my wife. I go to my hotel room and sit there and play around on the computer. Nobody to talk to or hug. Nobody to share some food with. Nobody to listen to as they discuss whatever was on their mind during the day.
It is definitely a clear sign that I would be terrible as a single man. Being a married man for so long now has gotten me used to how great it is that being away from my wife, even for this relatively short time, is not what I want out of life. Looks like I can get out earlier than normal by quite a bit on Thursday when the course finishes though and that means I can drive home, hold my wife and not let go for hours.
I think I just want to get this over with so I don't have to feel like this. It takes me back to my lonely days before I met my wife. No real friends, just the computers I fiddled around with. I don't want to be that guy again.
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