I had another of those nights of sleep last night where you go to bed, get comfy and then the next thing you know you are waking up and it is time to get up. It happens every so often to me. No dreams, no tossing and turning, no waking up once or twice during the night then nodding off again. Just pure unconsciousness for hours on end.
Its a weird feeling when it happens, knowing that for a period of time you were completely unaware of everything around you and will probably never know what happened. I know you can't be aware of everything but it would be nice to know it. To not miss out on anything in case it was something important. To be able to recall everything that happened around you and that you were notified about could be so useful, you know, just in case you need it. Usually I would rather know something just in case (unless it really bores me or is so trivial) or at least know how to know something. The fact that you can spend part of your time unable to know things scares me a bit.
A lot of what I do I do in my mind. I'm not a very physical person I'm more of a thinker. Anything that gets in the way of that or impairs it is worrying to me. The fact that as I get older I know my mind may deteriorate is very scary. I do my best to keep my mind occupied so that it stays active (what research tells us is the best way to keep it sharp as you get older) but am I doing the right things and enough of them. Worry worry worry.
Still, knowing that my mind goes in to a state where I can't bring in new information and I don't remember a bloody thing is still weird to me.
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