Is this so hard?

  Sometimes I come here and my mind goes immediately blank. I know I could waffle on about the latest game stuff that is interesting me but I doubt anyone really cares or actually reads what I write about that. Then I end with a problem. I know what I write here is just for me but I quite often have no idea what to type in. I could go on about Borderlands 2 coming out in a little under 2 weeks but nobody would care what I think. I could go on about the house next door and the chance that it is going to be sold and have people move in but that is just something that my wife and I care about.

  Just one of those days when I wonder why I bother I suppose. Work and life to get on with but other than going through the motions nothing exciting is happening. "New" job is same as before right now and we need to finish what we are working on before changing anything. Pushing to get changes going from management but they are in the process of rearranging and haven't actually done anything yet so it if frustrating.

  I don't know. Maybe it's just that there is so much that could happen in the near future but nothing is actually happening. That hurry up and wait mentality where you know something good is coming and want it to get here now. After taking so long to get here these new good things are teasing me and even though I'm pretty patient I think I'm getting tired of waiting. I push as much as I can but when it doesn't happen I understand a little how other people feel when they want something to happen right away.

  Still now that I've almost got this blog post done, 4 hours after I opened the page to write it, maybe I can relax a bit after understanding my mental loopiness I have at the moment. Clearly some distractions are needed so I don't think and dwell on this too much.