I got in to work today and the list of things to do is always there. There is never a time when I get here and there is nothing to do. You could say that is a good thing since I am kept gainfully employed but for once it would be nice if there was nothing for me to do and I could have time for me and my wife. Even at home there is always things to do to maintain the house and get what we need.
I just think I've gotten to the point in my life where is becomes a bore and a chore. There is no joy in the time when I do what I want and not what I want to do since I always seem to be dreading the next thing I have to do rather than enjoying the thing I want to do. Maybe its something to do with the way my mind works with jumping from one thought to another over and over covering all sorts of things. Maybe I"m just eternally tired. I don't know.
Anyway, going to slog through some work and then go home to where I want to be (well with whom I want to be with really) for another day and decide if this is really the best way to spend my life. Maybe I do need a change of work scenery or something but it really is nothing but drudgery right now.
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