Feel like being a kid

  Filled out the health insurance selections for next year today. Another of those things where you really don't have too much choice. Just pick the option that makes sure that my wife and I don't have to worry about being sick. In the end it is just money being used for it. Still it is another of those things in life that is serious and needs dealing with properly. Just making sure it is all correct and stopping from worrying is worrying in of itself. A small bit of worry and decision for a longer term period of not having to worry.

  It does make me want to just be a kid for a while though. No real responsibility and more time than you realise to do things you enjoy and not things you have to do simply because they won't get done any other way. That or lots of slaves to do your bidding I suppose. With me though the amount of time I enjoy just lazing around playing games and generally losing myself in what I'm doing is something I did a huge amount of as a kid. Now that I'm an adult, in body at least, all the problems and decisions that need to be made drag me down. I try to get them over and done with with the least hassle possible but some really drag on with no resolution for far too long. Usually it is someone else just not getting their end of the job done but sometimes it is my own indecision or reticence to do something difficult.

  Those times are when I really wish I could act like a kid again. I never worried about what was coming up in the next week/month/year and just lived in the moment of what I could do there and then. I know with my relatively well off job and lifestyle I don't worry about the basics but making sure I can stay in that position can be worrying. I'm looking at how much longer I need to work before I can retire and get back to a life of leisure all the time.

  It's just a shame so much of childhood is spent dealing with the other idiots you are forced to be with at school. Other than teaching me things I really didn't come out of school with much. Close to bugger all friends, very few actual good experiences and in the end knowledge that I have zero use for in my actual life. Can I get a dozen or so years back and use them more productively please?